It Feels All Right…
Wearing nothing is divine, naked is a state of mind.
Oh Lucious Jackson, how I still love you ladies!
In other news…apparently my credit score is on the rise. Came home to a notification that the limit on the credit card I begrudgingly signed up for in January was doubled. Seems like no big deal, right? Except for the part where I let you in on the fact that I filed for bankruptcy last year. And then lost my job. And then was unemployed for 7 months. And finally got a job where I make virtually no money. So yeah, I’m a little excited at the good news. Way more excited than I was when the idiots at Citibank gave me a card with a $40,000 limit and BOA gave me one with $25,000 back when I was 24.
In a lot of ways, my life has kind of gone backwards financially. I have all sorts of credit and cards when I was younger and I was making good money. I blew it all on people I shouldn’t have and by keeping my family afloat during my father’s repeated instances of unemployment. Now I make less than I made when I was 20, have almost no credit, and people still want me to take care of them financially, but I’ve had to learn how to put my foot down.
Like last night. I challenged my father as to why he can’t get off of his ass and find a job. I asked him why he wasn’t making phone calls to check on the status of his applications he’s supposedly submitted online or why he hasn’t taken advantage of any of the classes or programs offered for free by the Department of Labor. He just scowled at me and responded that he was working on his resume. I told him he needs to find a job because I can’t shoulder my bills and my parents’ as well. He just got quiet and went to bed. I turned to my mom and said it was like trying to deal with a 2 year old.
This is my life at 29. Seriously.
The moon tonight was fucking beautiful. I caught glimpse of it through the window at work and I literally gasped a little. Definitely the kind of moonlit night you should share with someone special. The kind of night that makes you appreciate the having of someone special in one’s life. The kind of night that makes being alone seem just that much harder for a minute.
I wish I had a better camera that takes good night-time pictures. That moon really was something lovely rising up over the vista of glass sheathed buildings…I could never do it justice with words. But take my word for it…make sure if you have someone special, you take advantage of naturally occurring splendors such as tonight’s moon. It just raises the sense of magic.
To me anyway.
Naked 