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Trying really hard to stay positive and not jump to too many conclusions right now, but that’s hard.
Just need to keep a clear head and wait for the referrals to specialists to come through and see what the tests all say.
Go to the Dr for a lost voice and mention (in writing nonetheless) a couple of things that were bothering me, and end up getting examined and told point blank I definitely have a fast-growing and aggressive Basal Cell Carcinoma on my shoulder (I did research…they’re supposed to be extremely slow-growing) and my persistent hip bone pain could be something more than just shitty joints.
I have had cancer scares before. I had moles removed in high school and tested and everything came back OK. A few years ago the Drs were all scared I had a brain tumor. I skate through that one too.
But not this time. The Dr had absolutely no trepidation in telling me what the weird, painful, lumpy growth on my shoulder that wasn’t there 2 weeks ago and is now roughly the size of a dime is BCC. Then he had me take off my shirt and went from looking very matter of fact to concerned.
Apparently my dislike for going to the Dr when I don’t feel right is biting me in the ass again. The hip thing has been going on for almost 2 years, getting steadily worse. And I know I’ve had a lot of moles and weird lumpy spots pop up in the past 6 months alone. I was fully planning on continuing to ignore both, but the voracity with which I went from being OK to being voiceless (in under 10 hours) pressed a warning button somewhere inside me.
Now I have biopsies and skin excisions and X-rays to look forward to in the coming weeks.
I’m hoping by some miracle the specialist says only the one on my shoulder is bad.
And I’m hoping I have a voice so I’m able to go back to work on Saturday.
Naked 
Just a quick note to wish you all the very best with your test results. I had a Basal Cell Carcinoma removed last year so can emphathise with your immense feelings of shock and worry. Just focus on the fact now that you’re being seen by a specialist and you’ll get the appropriate treatment. It’s not pleasant going through something like this – a physical and emotional rollercoaster – but, you’re doing the right thing getting treated and you’ll be okay in the end. All the very best and I wish you a speedy recovery.