Back, Back From The Edge
So today’s been interesting. Took me an hour to get to work because my town got hit hard by a nasty storm that caused massive flooding. Said storm sparked a monstrous headache…and I thought I was going to have to deal with it without any headache pills at work until midnight…but someone, somewhere smiled upon me and they let out mid-shift time off without pay.
I got to take 4 hours out of my day, go home, get meds and relax for a bit before finally heading back to work. I still have some time left before I have to clock back in and take care of people, and it’s a good feeling. I don’t even care about the lost money out of my paycheck. I needed to take care of me for a change.
Other strange thing that happened today – someone who I was sure really did not like me friend requested me on Facebook (I declined) and then found me on Instagram. I think it’s somewhat amusing because the only reason I can figure the sudden interest is my most recent ex. Who still hasn’t come to get her stuff or made an attempt to return mine.
Which is another oh well. So I lose more shit because of a break-up. Not really anything new or different. Still don’t really understand this break-up, doubt I ever really will, but I can’t keep stressing about it.
I can’t change who I am. Can’t change what happened. Can’t change my actions or my feelings. It is what it is and that’s that.
Someday some woman is going to walk into my life and decide they never want to walk out. Not today. Probably not tomorrow. Maybe not even in the next decade…but I have to believe there is someone out there who isn’t afraid to love me and to be loved by me.
I’m really not that scary. Promise.
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