Turning Tables
So I’ve been taking more and more time for myself and making my personal happiness a huge priority. In the past few weeks I’ve bought a new mattress…which was sorely needed…and new linens, and I took the money I had set aside to buy my ex the iPhone 5 when it came out and bought myself an iPad 3 instead…which I’d been wanting for months. I’ve also bought 2 pairs of shoes and a pair of boots I’ve been wanting for awhile, and sent a significant payment in on my car loan. I’m actually hoping to have my car paid off early and have the title in my hands by Christmas.
Christmas. Yeah, that’s going to be interesting again this year. Mostly because I had taken the whole week up through New Year’s off because when it came time to submit 4th quarter vacation requests at work, the girl I was dating wanted me to so we could maybe go on a cruise. Silly me actually thought since she was the one looking forward to making plans that far out, that she’d actually still be with me. Oops. The only positive in this is that I really could take a trip just about anywhere if I wanted to.
I got rid of my mohawk. It was time. I had had it for over a year. Went to a huge BBQ at a friend’s over this past weekend. It was a good time as always…bigger ice luge than last year, made a huge tray of my much requested Italian pasta salad, brought copious amounts of ingredients for lemon drops. We lit off tons of (illegal) fireworks…had a blast even with 5-0 being called on us!
The only thing that would have made it better was if I hadn’t gone solo. I’m hopeful that when this party comes around again next year, I won’t be.
I’m actually considering trying the online dating thing again…even if just for shits and giggles just to see if anyone is interested. I probably won’t do it though. I just got done removing people from my phone and Facebook and things that just were feeding into drama and negativity that I just do not want or need in my life. I’ve gotten really good at deleting people from my life over the past couple of years. I’m sure some people probably think I’m a bitch because of it, but honestly, it’s something that works for me and is far healthier than trying to appease people who don’t bring anything positive to my life.
I just wish people would understand if I keep denying friend requests, or do not respond to direct messages, that means something. That freaking girl that caused me to be accused of being a liar has requested me again, as has the other girl who I thought was her girlfriend. It feels absolutely ridiculous that this is even something I have to be annoyed by, but I am. I do not go back on my word. I also am not one to accept requests from people that I do not know. If anything, as 31 is fast approaching, I’m closing ranks and expending energy on less and less people.
Perhaps I should just stay on the path I was on for two years…just focus in on myself and do things that will benefit my future life and will set things up for a future relationship and a future wife. I’ve gone years without physical contact or comfort before…I know I can do it again.
So far, focusing on work has really worked for me. Just got a very big raise, and I’m getting promoted which comes with another raise. I’m not where I pictured myself 2 years ago, but I like where I’ve found myself instead.
Just need to figure out what I want to do for myself for my 31st in a couple of months…and what I’m doing with my Christmas holiday off!
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