Reflection
Yeah…I know. I’m an asshole for never updating.
It was hard to want to update when every day felt like a struggle and I felt like I couldn’t be myself. I still feel…as though I will be scrutinized for every word I write.
Life threw some pretty big boulders at me these past few…I’m not at all where I ever imagined I would be. I’m not at all who I even thought I could or would be. I’m not even certain I can even describe myself at this point.
Doors were closed. Doors were opened. Doorbells were never answered. Doors were firmly slammed shut. Doorways were vacated.
I’ve put in an enormous amount of work on myself these past couple years, and 2019 in particular I seemed to have evolved in leaps and bounds. I am leaving quite a few things behind this year, but I am taking and honoring the lessons learned into my future.
My dreams, hopes, and goals have never really changed…if anything they’ve been solidified.
Im on an unfamiliar path, and it’s scary as fuck, but I can honestly say it seems like I may finally be on MY path.
I’m seeing things in a totally new lights. I have rediscovered my resilience. Weight has been lifted (literally and figuratively) and it’s noticed by everyone around me.
A new journey starts with one step, and I know I may stumble and even fall, but I also know I will keep getting up and moving forward.
My story isn’t over; the best book of my life has started to be written.
Naked 