Do You Believe?
I believe. In a lot. More than most people would ever realize.
I believe in love. I believe there is someone out there searching for me, wondering if they’re ever going to find their compliment. I believe whole-heartedly that I deserve to be loved as much as I love. I believe I will have my happy ending. I believe I will get married and have my hand in hand walk on a sunset-tinged beach.
I believe all of this. I believe all of my failures, all of the pain, all of the false starts have happened for a reason. I believe they make me appreciate when good things happen to me all the more. I believe that every time I fall I will continue to pick myself up, clean out the wounds, and – when the scabs have turned into scars – I will get right back up on the metaphorical horse and try it again.
I believe that every day is a chance. A chance to get it right or to falter and fuck up. I believe the fuck ups are just lessons to be learned if you just pay attention. I believe that even though the lesson may not be apparent or obvious, it’s there somewhere.
I believe the lesson I’m meant to learn through the happenings of the past few weeks is that I’m an amazing person just being me, and while she wasn’t the right one, I believe that I’m getting closer to something beautiful. I believe that every day I’m getting closer to meeting the one.
I just hope wherever she is, she believes she’s also getting closer to meeting the one. I hope that when that meeting occurs, it’s the exact right time, the exact right place, and it feels magical and organic – as if we’d had this exact meeting hundreds of times before in past lives and histories.
I believe I am destined to have everything I’ve ever dreamed of and I deserve to be happy. I believe all of the work I’ve put into myself, all of the shit I’ve slogged through, all of the fuck ups I’ve repaired and recovered from, all of the embarrassments, all of the apologies and pleadings with something out there to look kindly upon me and going to make me uniquely capable of never underestimate life and to never take happiness for granted.
I believe you’re out there. Please believe I’m here too.
Naked 
It will happen , at the right place and right time… And you will just know 🙂